Sunday, April 17, 2011
I truly am sorry about everything. I have done said, and thought. This blog is where it all ends up because I can't keep it in anymore. I screw up at practically everything. I am stereotyped. People see me and think I am the one with the perfect life, money, but it's not me. Believe it or not. I'm the one with the hardest life. I am sad to announce that this might be one of my last posts before I take a blogging break because this is the last photo in my collection. See, how it works is I take one day and photograph every face I see (like blog type, not people type) and then download them to my computer, photoshop them, and then I'm set for a good 6 months to a year. This picture is of a purse my aunt made for my mom for christmas last year. I'm on spring break, and almost all my friends are in Vancouver because of Musical Theatre Club. One of my friends is in New York for a week and a half. I envy him. I go to New York every year in October. This year Im going to go in September and I can't wait. I'm going to see my friend Estelle sometime this week. She's really cool and funny. She always cracks me up. I saw my friend Elena on Friday and I slept over at her house. We went to a party at her school and this guy who I met for the first time (dude named Ben... with an awesome shirt) asked me to dance during one of the slow songs. I yelled NO in his face. It was an awesome party. There was a bubble machine, confetti cannon, smoke machine, black light, star light, lighting machine, DJ, disco ball, ect. I'm obsessed with this Australian singer named Sia. She's really good. Back to screwing up, last night we had people over for dinner and I had to make dessert many times before the cream puffs actually puffed. I miss Ellie as a friend, but I try to resist the pain. Well this is starting to become a pretty long post. So I guess I'll say one last thing. I checked all my views of my blog and I have people who viewed it from North America and Alaska. YOU ROCK ALASKA!!!!
Friday, April 1, 2011
WARNING: THE POST YOU ARE ABOUT TO READ COULD BE HARMFUL TO SOME OF THE READERS. IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM DEAL WITH IT, BECUASE THIS IS MY ONLINE JOURNAL/PHOTOGRAPHY COLLECTION. ALL WHICH I SAY IS TRUE. ALWAYS TRUST THE WRITER!!!
Yes I know this is a lame face, but the drama really started heating up lately which got me kind of distractive. When it comes to friendship me and Ellie are basically over. We all screwed up. She treated me like a rock. I've had that happen before and it drives me nuts. So I totally lost it and tore out all my terrible feelings. Do I regret it is the big question? Yes I feel sorry that she found out how I felt about her that way, but she finally gets that I can't stand her and her stupid perfect life that everyone dreams about. Do I care that she travelled all of Europe last year? No, but she talks about it so much that I hate her because of it. Do I care that she's going to Hawaii this summer? No.... well kind of because I never have been to Hawaii. Is Matilde going somewhere this summer? No.... her parents can't afford it at the moment. I'm fine that I'm not going on vacation this year, but it bugs me that all that Ellie talks about is her dream life. Also Musical Theatre Club is like hell to me. Ellie and Katy are in it. I don't like that sort of thing, so I don't join. All Ellie talks about is Musical Theatre Club, a topic which I cannot talk about. I am not allowed to express my opinion around her because if we have different ones she starts to cry (which we usually do). I want to personally talk to her about all this, but it's like talking to a 3 year old. Gets distracted WAY to easily. And can't stand being wrong. I want me, her, and Katy to be friends again, but I cannot stand having to be quiet because one of these girls (not me or Katy) has issues that restrict me into the no talking zone.